Seven Deadly Sins.

I'll Make the Moves - Scenes & Sirens
Beauty In the Breakdown (Acoustic) - The Scene Aesthetic
Thinking of You - Katy Perry
The Moneymaker - Rilo Kiley
Foundations - Kate Nash
Mr. Right - Mickey Avalon
So Rich, So Pretty - Mickey Avalon
Face Up - Lights

Hey, kids.

So here I am.

Back from the glory that is my fathers home.

It was fun; thanks for asking.

I ate way too much, though, and now I feel fat.

Awesome.

I did miss home, so it's nice to be here, too.

We were looking for my cat for a few minutes and my grandpa goes, "Why don't you look outside, the cat door was open for a little bit."

After I freaked out that the cat door was open, I looked outside, and within seconds, my cat runs at full speed inside.

I thought it was funny.

Ha.

I have a headache and I've had it all weekend.

It's definately not making me a happy camper.

And that kind of made me sad; saying happy camper.

-Sigh & a mental slap-

The best part about being at my dad's is actually watching good television.

Or watching television at all, really.

When I'm at home, there is always somebody hovering around downstairs that you just don't want to be with.

Not that enjoyable.

Onto our topic of the day: Jealousy.

What is jealousy?

jeal·ous·y–noun,plural-ous·ies for 4.
1.
jealous resentment against a rival, a person enjoying success or advantage, etc., or against another's success or advantage itself.
2.
mental uneasiness from suspicion or fear of rivalry, unfaithfulness, etc., as in love or aims.
3.
vigilance in maintaining or guarding something.
4.
a jealous feeling, disposition, state, or mood.

And there you go.

I'm jealous way too often to improve my life, I'm sure.

It's just recently been a problem.

I want something that I can't have and so I get jealous of whoever can have it.

Anyways.

Did you know that the best motivation to make something better or to improve your emotional state is by pushing yourself?

I know, right? Astounding.

Self-Motivation is the best motivation.

The only thing wrong with this is that if you're completely depressed and in emotional turmoil, how are you supposed to work together enough happiness to even motivate yourself at all?

I'm having a really weird mental experience right now.

I'm angry, upset, and for some reason I feel like that journalist chick that always blogs late at night in her New York apartament... You know the one.

I haven't felt this bad in a while.

I just want to kick somebody in the face.

Let's move on to a less aggressive topic.

What does Alex Gray want to do when high school is over?

I want to go to college, get my degree in psychology, and try to make something out of it.

Try to be a teen psychologist.

Do you know how much every teenage kid needs one? It's crazy.

Anyways, while I'm in school I would love to get a little retail job or something so I can support myself for that time period.

That or have a roommate, which would be kickass and help with finances.

I really need somebody to help me pick myself up.

I don't think I can do this alone, it's pathetic.

I want to be able to do everything on my own and be independent with all of the things I do, but I just don't think I can keep myself going at this rate.

I have issues that need to be resolved within my own mind.

This is a depressing blog.

I think I'm going to stop before I spread my problems.