Hand-Eye Coordination.

Sorry for not posting lately (if you're one of my avid readers).
Sarcasm, sarcasm.

Today was OK.

I was browsing through some photographers portfolios and saw some super cute pictures.

Kind of like this one ->

(Which was my favorite and is probably my all-time favorite picture anywhere).

Ever since I was little I always imagined a picture exactly like this one.

It's pretty much what I always wanted me and my future significant other to be like.

Ha, surprise or no surprise?
It's just a simple portrayal of casual rivalry and companionship.

I think I'm coming around to the idea of letting go.
It's really difficult; especially since I was genuinely happy.
Thinking about the most ideal situation helps, but the only problem with that is that no relationship is perfect, so I'm thinking a little too idealistic, and I'm back to feeling sadened.
Something'll happen eventually, I just need to be patient, and patience is the problem.

Onto something different (I talk too much about said sadness too much to make it any easier for me to recover) :
I'm tired of ignorance.
Don't be ignorant.
Don't think that things will always happen the way you want them to just because you think you came up with a magical solution.
They won't.
Think completely and to the best of your ability over a period of a few months; you'll know what I mean.

Onto something even more different:
I'm tired of feeling left out.
I understand being left out; I understand why I'm not being invited; it just sucks.
I would like to laugh and be able to contribute to funny conversations and smiles.
I want to be a part of something and, this is so cliche, feel like I fit in somewhere.
I want to have a ton of friends to go and hang out with who'll appreciate my company and enjoy my presence.
That's all I want.
It's not a lot, is it? To want happiness among friends who'll make you feel busy and joyful?
It'll take my mind off of things and I won't worry so much.
I'll have something to do.
Moping around is no pick-me-upper, I can assure you.

The past few days that I haven't posted have just been tiresome weekend days of bland disaster.
I did make pancakes, though, so that wasn't so terrible.
It got me to do something.

I'm almost done with my audio book! (Eep!)
I need more books. (Hint, hint?)
That'll help, too.

Friends > books, but all the same, you need some fantasy world time no matter what.

I'm hungry; I think I'm going to go get some toast.

Loves & Fears; Smiles & Tears.