Mourning.

Starstruck - Lady GaGa

Let Me Love You Down - INOJ

Who Am I To Say - Hope

Today! Today is it!
My birthday was nice.

Not overly great, not overly bad.

It was OK.

I had Daiquiri Ice ice cream.
(Two 'ice' 's on purpose).
Best flavor ever invented.

Baskin Robbins.

I got $70 bucks.

Exciting, eeh?

I was supposed to go to Tiffany (the one in San Francisco), but, complications.

We should be going tomorrow, if plans go as plans go.

Thanks to all of you who have said 'Happy Birthday'!

It really meant a lot to me.

Onto normal life;

I'm lonely.

Really.

My biggest, scariest, most overwhelming fear is to be alone.

So when I am alone, I feel like I'll be this way forever.

I know I (90% here) won't be alone forever.

Most people don't end up that way unless there's a good reason.

I feel like I talk about loneliness in every blog I ever write.
Maybe you get how important it is to me, I guess.

For those of you who would immediately say, "I'm here for you." "You'll never be alone, just talk to me," etc, etc, thank you.

I appreciate it.

But I think I'm not the only one that can be spoken for when I say that I need more than just friends.
A boyfriend (in my case) is a lot different than a friend.

It's a bit more and, to be honest, I trust them more.

I feel more comfortable with them.

I really miss that connection.

The hugs and kisses.

I need to learn to be independent and a strong, good woman.

But I don't think I can.

I'm just not the type.

I love a companion.

Anyways.

I really like clothes.

Clothes are good.

I want to go shopping, but I always like to go with $200+, so it's basically an 'every-two-months' thing.

I don't really know what to say.

I have no ranting, no extreme dislikes.

People are people and you can't change them;

Whether you want peace or an eco-friendly environment.

Things are always just going to get progressively worse.

So you just need to stick to yourself.

Love & miss you.