The Overrated Truth of Deception.

The constant banter between rain and shine has become tiresome; why can't the younger sibling win the battle?

It would be fun to dance and run and play in the rain.

Even if I was just by myself with a song playing in the back of my head...

The wet shivers just make me smile with a sense of wonder and amusement.

Why can't everyday rain?

"& I take it just a little bit; I hold my breath and count to ten; I've been waiting for a chance to let you in... If I just breathe with no space between, I'll know everything is alright."

"It's all so overrated, not saying how you feel... So you end up watching chances fade and wondering what's real."


All You Wanted - Michelle Branch
Breathe - Michelle Branch
Everywhere - Michelle Branch

Why Michelle Branch today?
I'm not sure.
Just feelin' it.
She's calm. Today was pretty calm.

Quote of the day/week: "It's not that big of a deal. Don't make it a big deal." - Alex Gray
Don't stress every little thing out. Just... breathe. Think rationally, please. That's all that needs to be done.

I have a crush on a boy.
Well, maybe it's not a crush.
Maybe I just want boys to like me because I need a self esteem boost.
Is that too much? Is that considered vein?
I hope not. It's just a personal thought.

You know, I'm glad my parents are divorced.
It's horrible to say, but if they were together things would be pretty.. for lack of a better word, shitty.
Things happen for a reason.
All things happen for a reason.
Or maybe I'd just like to believe so because it gives me hope for better things to come.
People need hope.
Hope is good in most cases; unless it's false, then I get a little upset.

Overall, life is good.
I love the smiles.
I'm being negligent to my studies, but that's normal.
I probably should pick it up, though, or things might get ugly.

I think my greatest fear is to be alone.
I hate being alone.
I'm terrified.
I can't stand the silence and only sometimes can I tolerate it. (That being when I'm rather down).
Anyways.

I hate to stop watching Heroes when I got down to the very last episode of the first season.
Bummer, right?
Yeap.

I'm kind of tired of bringing the cupcakes to school, but I love making them and making people happy to eat them.
You feel me?
Good.

I think all I want to do is to be in love.
To be loved by another so deeply that things are comfortable in my mind.
So things feel complete and eventful even when nothings really going on.
Hmm.

& last, but not least:
I love Nickolai for making me happy when nobody else can.
When I'm crying for all that I'm worth and am pretty much incomprehensible.
I'm sorry that I was blind to kindness when all I wanted was the approval of somebody who wasn't even worth it & for being ignorant and naive to lies and deceit.
Thank you. For everything.
I could never repay you for all of the nice things that you did for me just because you cared.